Lonely
By: Tamar Pedersen

Do you remember all those memories?
All the things we used to do.
I shake my head.
I've been drifting again.
Can't seem to keep my mind off you.

I wonder what your doing in heaven
I hope to join you there someday.
Until then I'll just keep praying,
That I'll see your face again.

Chorus:
I'm lonely, so lonely,
But I can't cry.
You might see me in heaven.
I'll wipe the tears from my eyes.

I've been trying to get in touch with my inner self.
But lately there's no answer.
Been wondering if, my inner self's run off
To be with you.

Bridge:
Your heart was still beating, just a few short hours ago.
This frail existence, caught in natures ebb and flow.
The light has gone out now, but still a precious afterglow.
You sent your pencil down; the final chapter has been closed.

Until I see your face again, I'll be living for that moment.
And when I die, if I'm smiling.
Then they can rest assured,
The first face I saw was yours.

Chorus:
I'm lonely, so lonely,
But I can't cry.
You might see me in heaven.
I'll wipe the tears from my eye

You might see me in heaven.
I'll wipe the tears from my eye

Lonely - About

We all know that the day is coming when God will call us back home. The thought of going home can be exciting, but it is often hard for the loved ones we leave behind.

My wife has lived with some serious health conditions, since her childhood. In all probability, she will be going home before I do, and although death is a constant spectre, I never got a taste of what that future lonliness might be like, until my wife took a vacation with the kids without me one year. I had to stay home for work, and was alone for almost two weeks.

My imagination got the best of me, and I thought about what life without her would be like. The words to this song came while she was gone.

In one sense, it is a love song to her, but when I first shared the words with her she was a little troubled. After some encouragement, she managed to help me with an arrangement, and the song was born.

The thing I didn't realize about this song was that anybody who had lost a loved one, could identify with the message portrayed by the lyrics. I was surprised when a good friend of mine told me that this was her song, because it reminded her about her father, who had passed away. As I reviewed the lyrics I realized there was nothing that tied the song to me and my wife exclusively, although I must confess that if my wife hadn't gone on a vacation without me, I would probably never had experienced the emotions that gave birth to the song.

If you have ever grieved for the loss of a loved one, the lyrics will probably speak to you